As i sit
I know I haven’t blogged in a little while and as I sit here in silence today, focusing my energy on a positive place, I thought of you. I have had my ups and downs lately. We have had a major overhaul of our kitchen which has slowed down my productivity which in turn makes me pretty cranky. We’ve rounded the corner and it looks like I should be able to squeeze back behind the desk by tomorrow and also COOK A HOT MEAL!
I can not explain how depressed it has made me not to be able to stand over my stove and make a home cooked meal. A project that was quoted as “a three day job” has now taken over a month and I am happy to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Not to mention that besides the microwave, a toaster oven and a fire pit to cook food, we have been eating take out almost everyday. I remember before i learned to cook how much i ate out and the amount of money this month alone spent on take out or delivery makes me look back at that person i was and cringe. Now think about every band you ever see on the road that isn’t in a bus… We have to get pretty creative to cook for ourselves as 75% of your days on the road are spent traveling. It’s a tough racket… but damn i miss it and you guys so very much.
I am done complaining…. I know how unattractive it is…
Drawing and cooking are really the two things that bring me great joy and without those two activities I don’t know how long I would have lasted in this current pandemic. The weather in NC just got cold. Right now it is 65 degrees and dropping as the sun is already starting to descend. I think the first thing I will make is a simple vegetable broth.
Before I went fully plant-based I used to find so much comfort in making a classic chicken soup. The fun wasn’t in the eating, even though it warms the soul on a cold night. The joy for me was in the preparation. It would take almost an hour before everything was boiling in the Dutch oven. My mind would be nearly blank as I followed the guidelines traced in my memory of my grandmothers skilled hands. It was a recipe i was never told. I just observed over and over and the recipe is here in my mind.
My grandmother has been gone for a while but when I make a broth and put on Nina Simone I can feel her presence. That is something that will never leave me. Those chilly nights with a bowl of hot soup and a few slices of crusty bread. That is what I need right tonight.
I am trying to overt the fact that it is Election Day. I know that all of you have been bombarded with the message to go out and vote. I hope you know how important it is to do so and that you have already done the job. Today as we wait with bated breath, know that we more than likely will not know the outcome tonight or even tomorrow perhaps. I will find comfort in that place I mentioned. A calm memory of soup and conversation. I will try to meditate there and feel positive about my nation. Because right now we need all of the positivity we can get.
if you still have yet to receive your matches or lyric sheets please know that the last batches are in production and I will have them in the mail to you in due time. Thanks for being patient with me as I know I sometimes tend to be a bit of a flake. More about my anxieties later…. When I print off the labels you will receive an automated email with tracking, so keep a look out.
I love you all very much and I wish you a warm and happy evening.
(Enjoy this picture of my half assed Halloween costume. I believe I may make this an everyday look)
Snake Oil Salesman (10-31-20)
